On the "real you"

Voice Memo #52

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The audio transcript

for those who prefer to read instead of listen (i mean do you ever really listen to anyone?) but whatever, I'm too tired to right paras, here's the pointers instead:

• people painting a version of you, and you complaining “but that’s not who I really am”
• the person you think of as "yourself" exists only for you, and even you don't really know who that is.
• kinda why it can be a bit awkward to bring together people from different parts of my life.
• Every person I meet, have a relationship with or make eye contact on the street with, creates a version of "me" in their heads.
• But if this simple principle is applied to how people see me, then what does this principle mean for all the people I see?
• I judge people, I villainise them, I do all that shit too
• All the projections of people that you internalised, and all the times the voices of those mental projections cried out to alter your behavior. None of them are actually who the other person is. They are only constructs that you created out of your limited perspective of reality. or limited interactions with them
• Work me, with-my-gf me (if one lasts long enough to be at that time), with the family me, with my friends me and online me.
• are anyone of them fake? is this online me for eg fake?
• yeah this online me is not exactly who I really am, but a part of it is. still idt it really represents me fully as a person.
• idt any of those personas individually represent who I am,
• still all of those "me" are real
• Realising that we are different when we are with different people, in different places, wearing different clothes. Everyone is a kaleidoscope of personalities. We act happy when you’re sad. We say we’re fine when we are obviously not fine. We sometimes have to laugh when we would like to cry. Constantly trying on different personalities is a side effect of the human condition.
• I think in love, is the person who knows you for who you really are, maskless and alone. You don’t have to construct a false facade with them. You don’t have to change to fit in. You can laugh as you like. They not only know you without a mask, but they know each of your masks as well. With them, your puzzle piece personas integrate, and you are one complete being.
• yeah making out and stuff is fun and all but have you ever been fully perceived?
• it doesn't matter if im painted out as good or bad, hated or loved, at least im interesting... or I think I am interesting, to me at least. be interesting (honestly idk what I was blabbering about by this point in the audio)
• be kind, be interesting, don't judge cause it's easier to judge than just realising people are fucking complicated.
  

Be kind,
Kay.

_#107